I've finally managed to plop my big rear into my bed and with absolutely no fight! I'm under the covers but I'm still cold. Chad watching the greatest idol in our home, the television. Americans worship the television way more than than God Almighty, including our family. And I have come to bed with my best friend, the handy dandy laptop. Yes, the laptop is here for me through thick and thin, through good times and bad, and doesn't judge me or leave me. I go to bed to rest, refresh, get ready for the next day. Instead, I bring the world to bed with me. I bring my mail, my facebook friends, my thoughts, my research and anything else you can do online to bed with me. You would think I would put it away for the night but noooo, I do what I should not and I don't do what I should! Paul understood this twisted concept, I wonder if He ever got it under control.
I ate a great supper, thanks to Vilma! I was not hungry but felt the need for a snack. There was ice cream in the fridge but that was just too cold to my already fridgid body. I opted instead for the last tiny bit of gluten free cereal and milk. It was still cold but not icy cold like the cream. The point is that I really didn't need a snack physically. I just wanted to eat. Why do I want to eat when I'm not physically hungry? We all know how we sooth ourselves with food and how we should turn to God instead of food. I have a hard time with this, I'm simply not on that spiritual level. I hope to be someday but thank God, he designed me and He knows me and only HE can change me.
Yes, my life is full of suttle idolitry and I'm embarrassed of that but it is a fact. I long to overcome but my finite mind has a long way to go.
It's 10:05pm and I have yet to brush my teeth and take out my eyes (contacts). I just want to lay here and type my thoughts. I thought blogging would be a chore but it's quite addictive. Feels good to free my thoughts!
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